It’s been quite some time since I’ve posted here. For quite some time I’ve been lurker on this site– having found someone in the vanilla word that is wonderful. Lifestyle Lounge has been a naughty pleasure one that I’ve secretly indulged in for the past couple of years. I haven’t done anything yet- but I enjoy reading forum threads/ blogs and seeing what my friends are up to. I even look at my photos and they make me smile. The fun, the trips, the naughtiness, the people…
I’m in a committed monogamous relationship these days- but I often wander back to my time in LS and smile. My partner knows about my time in the LS but has made it clear that is not an option for him. He says he knows his that if he goes along with it he’ll end up resenting me later. On numerous occasions we have run into LS people while we are out- there’s always an awkward moment where afterward I have to explain how I know them. Unfortunately San Diego is a smaller city than I had anticipated. We had a serious discussion about whether I would be even able to be in a monogamous relationship. We agreed that if/when I felt the urge to return that I would let him know.
Here is my dilemma- after meeting so many open minded people and being at so many great events- I miss it I love that my LS friends still invite me out without hope or agenda- but the truth is- I find myself missing the LS I led for over 6 years. Even now – there is something about a gathering of like-minded individuals – the sexual tension in some of the mixers that is almost intoxicating.
Is it really possible to go back in to the vanilla world – when you’ve experienced so much?